I feel like a phony

And the devil loves it. I've not written a blog in months, even though I have so much to say... why? Fear, doubt, the devil, exhaustion, so many things. We've sold a house, co-habitated, been frustrated and happy, been joyful and angry. I've questioned everything. My gram had breast cancer, my thyroid, apparently IS normal.... so many things. Good things, learning opportunities, but all in all, God is still good.

It seems like when I take showers God's in my head, He gives me so many good ideas and topics that by the time I get out of the shower, my squirrel on crack brain has forgotten them, until

today... today, He wouldn't let me forget.... even if I wanted to, even THOUGH I wanted to. His will be done. So, I'm sharing, like it or not, here it is. It's my perspective, obviously I always hope I'm sharing Truth, but I am human and sometimes my humanness gets in the way. I curse. I drink, not a lot but I enjoy the occasional cocktail or two.... or three.

Yes, Jesus turned water in to wine, but if you look at it correctly, wine back then was 1 part and water was 3, because they didn't have this filtered stuff we do now, so they wouldn't have had anything to drink if he didn't. It's not like they were getting sloshed or anything. Where was I? Oh yes, my perspective, shit, apparently I can't type today. So many things to say and I'm afraid they'll leave my head if I don't get them out. Well, here ya go. My perspective, hopefully I did ok. I'm sure He'll tell me if I didn't, or maybe someone with another opinion will.... maybe not. Maybe no one will take the 45 minutes to even listen, either way, I feel I did what I needed to do. Now you go do what you need to do.