On the other side of fear...

Is everything you've ever dreamed of... the job, income, relationships, faith, body, healing, forgiveness, LOVE. Sunday we were headed to church, D got baptized, PRAISE GOD! and I heard a song I've heard 100X before, why do they sometimes hit us differently at different times?

'On the other side of everything I'm afraid of, you're standing with your arms wide open.' So, I want you to ask yourself what you're afraid of. I'm afraid I'll never be a mom, that I'll never build the business I want to build, I'll never be the leader I want to be, I'm afraid I'll never be loved as I want to be loved... I'm afraid I'll always overeat... What are you afraid of? I just got real vulnerable with you... share some love with me, won't you?

The truth is, as scripture tells us in Philippians, I CAN DO ALL THINGS....through Christ who gives me strength..... I CANNNNNN DOOOOOO ALLLLLL THINGS. So, the answer is... on the other side of your fear is the life you want to live... but are you willing to give up control to become the person God NEEDS you to be so He can make you who you desire to be? THAT my friend is the question.

I'm fasting today, and the devil is COMIN AT ME BRO... my dog is annoying, my stomach is growling, I keep telling myself all the things I should be doing, why I should eat... I walked two miles so I need food.... Ok, well truth of the matter is ya'll, all I need... all any of us need is Jesus. And I've got that, so I don't need food to sustain me, I don't need anything except the blood of Jesus that's already been poured out for me.... and the same goes for you if you've accepted Christ as your personal Savior... So, what's next?

Well, you've gotta get real. You've got to face the things you don't want to. You've got to forgive those you don't want to, and heal from the things you're afraid to let back out. I've been there, it SUCKS, but if you want TRUE healing and to move forward in your life, you've got to walk through your fear door.

My workout girls are doing a book club and the author challenged us to do a mind-map. Write your big scary word in the middle and all the things about that word that relate to your struggles, mine is Doubt, circling around the many things I listed above. What's your word? How does your mind-map look?

You've got to get your shit straight, as hard as it is to open up old wounds, you've GOT to face them if you want to live truly free in Christ, doing all He's calling you too. I understand that anxiety and depression can often be a genetic makeup, but sometimes it's just falling to your knees in prayer, letting God have it all. I'm fortunate enough to say that I've been off anxiety meds since 2009, I still feel the occasional panic attack rear it's head, but I've learned in those moments to bow my head, I don't care where I am.... people may judge you, but scripture says to welcome it, so I do. It isn't easy... people say often that I'm more 'mature' in my faith... and that isn't it. I've just watched God work too many miracles in my life to even think for a second that He won't offer me another one. He will for you too.

'ON THE OTHER SIDE OF EVERYTHING YOU'RE AFRAID OF, HE'S STANDING WITH HIS ARMS WIDE OPEN.' Will you really live a half-ass life because of fear? Say no. Strap on your big girl panties, humble yourself and PRAY. You're not called to live lacking anything, you're called to live IN purpose ON purpose for Christ. So, go, giddy on up, read a good book (The Bible) and what it tells you about WHO YOU ARE and about fear.

You can do all things because He lives inside you and has given you all the fruits of the Spirit required to go out and do His bidding. At the end of your life do you really want to face Him knowing you didn't do all you could? No way Jose, not this girl. I'll get weird for Jesus all day long! My prayer is that you will too.