Seek Him, not the cookie.

It's always BEEN messy, it will always BE messy. We can live in the mess or we can choose different.

I was having a legit existential CRISIS three weeks ago, food. FOOD was taking OVER my life...I've been there before, but not like this. I'm a friggin fitness coach and I gained 27 pounds last year, my body's been pissed for a long time, she's been through a lot so when I finally decided to DO something about it and magic didn't just appear after a few weeks I went ape shit. I was standing in my bathroom, I'd just showered and I was thinking HOW in the HELL am I going to lose this damn weight when I'm doing ALL the things right and this and that and yada yada yada....I'd been plateaued for a month and was trying to figure out every little thing.... then I lost it. God stepped in and said, YO, SIT DOWN AND GIVE IT UP.

I could almost HEAR Him. So I sat on my bed with wet hair dripping in just my undies and I cried and prayed, I put my hands in the air and said 'TAKE IT!' I don't WANT IT ANYMORE. 15 minutes I sat there and prayed it away.... and guess what, He did. It's gone. Since that day, I've dropped 13 pounds, given up my desire to eat crap food, I treated myself to a kiddie cone a week or so ago, it felt good. It was just another instance of giving God my junk... stupid junk.

A bunch of ladies in our workout group have been reading Lysa Terkueurst's 60 day, Made to Crave Devotional and it's helped me see just how much power I give to food, healthy and not.... I want God to be the Lord of my life, not something I put in my mouth that satisfies me for the 30 seconds it's there until I swallow it.... I mean how shallow that I give so much credit to something I'm going to crap out in (hopefully) two days.... I know that's disgusting but it's so true.... it's ridiculous. And for some people it's alcohol or pills or cigarettes or porn or shopping or constant scrolling on social media... for others it's comparison or tragedy or anxiety... whatever we give power to that keeps us from Jesus isn't doing us any favors.

Thank you Lord for taking this struggle.

What do you need to give up today? What is stealing your peace, your health, your joy that can only be found in Jesus? We all have something. My prayer is that you'll face it, pray over it, release it and let Him take it. Life's too short to let food rule our lives... He is the bread of life, and as someone who loves bread, I know I've never been as satisfied by a piece of toast as I have the constant love, kindness, forgiveness and grace Jesus gives me daily.

Let go girl. Let God do His thing, He knows what you need better than you do. Relinquish control and move on. Your purpose is BIGGER, your mission is BIGGER. Seek Him. Not the cookie.