Stop drop and pray

Have you ever felt so overwhelmed by the Holy Spirit that you dropped where you were to just be? I've had two moments in the past few years and one happened today in my bathroom while I was getting ready for the day.

I'd been praying about life and our wedding, I got engaged one week ago today to the love of my freaking life, my best friend, my neighbor (literally) and soul mate... but as all relationships go, it ain't perfect, there are always people in your life who will cause you to stumble, even if they mean the best, it can hurt.... and it does. I was praying for these people and a few others, had headed to my bathroom to put on my eyebrows ;) lol and felt an overwhelming sense to drop, so I obeyed, I dropped and the tears flowed, and flowed and flowed and flowed.... they didn't stop, I don't know how long I sat there, but I do know that some pretty weird noises came out of my mouth; hurt, anger, frustration, sadness, joy, peace, forgiveness to name a few.... I sat, I weeped, I prayed, I felt my grandpa so very close to me I could almost smell his brut aftershave... maybe that's because I keep his last bottle in my bathroom cabinet. :) And it all just left me, all the anger and hurt and sadness and frustration, He took it. My business, my finances, my health, my uterus, my endo, my autoimmune, He took it all. It's His now. I am His, I am free.

It'll be back tomorrow, that's how satan works, he's a real mother-f'er like that, but God took it from me once and He'll take it again, He's a gracious God, there to take what we need Him to, we've just gotta let go. It's not healthy to hold on, but it sucks to let go, what else will you have if you go ahead and forgive that one person you'd rather not? How will you survive if there isn't someone for you to be annoyed with? Well, you will. He will be there. Let Him lead you, you don't need to hold it anymore, let it go.

There will always be someone to steal your sunshine, to rain on your parade, to piss in your proverbial cheerios, let them. Rain brings flowers, the sun will shine again and cheerios aren't even that good for you, if someone really needs to feel that way, let them, their feelings don't actually have anything to do with you. Pray for them, release them and move on. It isn't easy, we have to face these people day after day, even if not the same people, some sort of VERSION of them will always exist. Are you going to just let everyone get under your skin? Don't. Who friggin cares anyway... is it really going to ruin your life? No. So move on. You deserve better.

Give God your crap, take a breath, say a prayer and go to sleep. Drop where you are, pray, let it out. Often times after my workout girls have been with me awhile, they'll tell me they broke down after or mid workout, crying, sobbing, yelling, making sounds they didn't know they could make. Have you done this? It's your past, it's trauma, hurt, scars physically or emotionally breaking through, no joke, research it for yourself. It's HEALING and it's amazing. I've experienced it a few times myself after a workout as I did this morning on my bathroom at the foot of the cross. Let it out my friend. Let it go. It's not yours to carry. His burden is easy and His yolk is light, let shit go and let God in. What the hell do you have to lose anyway?