When I was 14, I said I'd never have an abortion.

My mama got pregnant with me when she was 17, I could never give up a baby... Then at 19 I was raped and I remember praying for a month that I wouldn't get pregnant because there was NO WAY in Hell I'd have that face staring at me for the next lifetime. I can tell you with 99% certainty that I would've had an abortion. Praise God I didn't have to make that choice because at 37 I started hemorrhaging, at 38 I had a hysterectomy, never having conceived. My point? This is not a political post, this is to say that life changes, perspective changes. My point is to say that you NEVER know what life will bring... my decision that I thankfully didn't have to make could've and would've been the biggest regret of my life.

God knows best. Scripture says 'He knew us before we were formed in the womb.' He also says 'He makes beauty from ashes.' So, if you've had to make that decision, I am So sorry. He can make beauty from those ashes, He restores your soul. If you haven't but need to make that decision, seek Scripture and what God says.

I do believe there are circumstances that can make you question God's plan. What if... what if my 12 year old is raped and becomes pregnant? What if my child is deformed... I'm not here to tell you what to do, I'm definitely not here to judge you. What I'm here to tell you is that God makes beauty from ashes. But pray. Seek Him and His will. These can be the hardest decisions you will ever make, but as someone who will never be able to carry a baby, I beg you to consider every alternative. May God bless you and keep you, may His light shine down upon you and give you peace.