You are NOT enough...

It's ok, find comfort in that... someone, one day decided that this whole do it all on your own thing was a freaking rite of passage and I am here to tell you that they were wrong. If we were enough, why would Christ sacrifice Himself on a cross? Ummm, He wouldn't. So, beloved, take PLEASURE in the fact, that you, are NOT enough. And you were never meant to be.

It took me until I was 40 to realize this and I'm pretty sure I saw it on Pinterest and it struck a cord with me, so I started reading and eventually came to the terms that I don't have to be, nor do I want to be enough.

I want God to do the work for me and in me. I'm becoming quite content, even though I fail OFTEN, remembering that He'll do it, I just have to have faith.

Last month, I'd set a goal and if it weren't for Him, I wouldn't have hit it. If it weren't for me thanking Him for providing, I wouldn't be sitting here telling you His latest work in my life. They happen each day, you see, just the simple fact that I woke up, with breath and life and a husband who loves my unconditionally, That right there, is PROOF in the puddin.

So, just STOP, for the LOVE of all things Holy and let God do what He needs to do in your life. You weren't meant to do it alone and you're not fooling anyone by thinking you actually enjoy this selfishness. And it IS selfishness. We're surrounded by it. By false humility and the 'look at me' do all the things act. It isn't cute and it isn't how we're meant to live. When people tell me they're 'too busy' to workout or food prep or sleep, I feel sorry for them. I know that there ARE people out there where this applies and actually happens, but it is so rare. We DO have time, we're just paralyzed in fear... what if we fail.... well, what if we don't?

What if?

What if you stopped trying to control all the shit in your life and just sat back and thanked God for working it out for you.... what then? Could you do it? Can you handle it? The clothes can wait, the dishes can wait, maybe you just need 5 minutes in silence while the kid screams or husband blares the basketball game with those damn squeaky shoes and ask God to quiet your heart and mind and to fill you so FULL of the Holy Spirit that everything else just faaaaades and you're left feeling... what? FUL-FREAKING-FILLED... Try it. I dare ya.

You want to be everything for everybody and you're not doing anyone, especially yourself ANY favors in the meantime. The house will survive without you. Relinquish control grasshopper, you don't actually have any anyway.... and the sooner you grasp that concept, the sooner He can start to work in your life.

Giving my crap to God was the hardest, most worthwhile thing I've ever done. Not to say I don't pick it up now and again, but the Holy Spirit inside me reminds me of His Truth and I'm able to lay it down at the foot of that old rugged cross, exactly where it belongs.

I'm hosting a Bible Study starting 3/6 on Facebook. Join my mailing list if you'd like to be invited. We'll be doing a deep dive into Haggai about setting goals/priorities with God. We'd love to have you!